This is What it Sounds Like, When Butterflies Cry

Fogged In

This is what 6:15 a.m. looks like, in Jersey!

The morning came quickly, as it usually does to a seasoned (i.e. perpetually perplexed and severely sleep-deprived) parent (like me) and, unlike most mornings, I let the dog out, while my husband started the coffee (bless his squishy heart) and we both continued to pretend like last night did NOT happen.

"She's in tears."

Long story, short (you're welcome) unlike her 3 siblings, today is the 1st day of school for my middle girl.

"What DID you say to her?"

Suffice it to say, I've earned yet ANOTHER ✔ mark in reasons why I make OTHER mothers look good (really, don't mention it!) by upsetting my daughter to the point of tears, on the night before her 1st day of high school.

"She started it!"

Did I forget to mention, her mother also happens to have the emotional maturity of a 9 year-old?!?

SLAM!

So, rather than expose my children to further examples of what NOT to do, for which I'm hoping their future significant others will thank me for, later (probably not) I took a self-imposed time out on our front porch.

Did I forget to mention, our front porch is NOT screened in, or the fact that I absolutely DESPISE bugs?!?

GAH!

So, rather than risk being eaten by mutant moths (Mothra lives!) I swallowed my mommy pride and slunked back into the house.

SLUNK!

"Can I talk to you, Mom?"

Long story, short (yeah, I know, I lied) we ARE a lot alike (my 14 year-old and me, I mean) and we were both just stressed out (to the MAX) by the fact that, you know, she is going into high school.

"Don't worry, Sweetie, you'll be just fiiiine!"

Boy, if I had a dollar for each time I lied (like that) well, you know.

"But, you're so far away, Mom!"

Did I forget to mention, she was accepted into a career academy, that happens to be 25 miles away (i.e. approx. 30 minutes, if you're from Jersey) and that the bus picks her up at 6:25 a.m.?!?

"Doesn't anybody stay in one place, aaaaanymore?!?"

[blank stare]

"It would be SO FINE to see your face at my door…"

[blink, blink]

"…doesn't help to know, that you're so…"

Did I forget to mention, whenever faced with a difficult parenting situation, under extreme pressure, I often break into song.

"Okay, you can STOP singing now!"

If only it were THAT easy.

Heather Kindergarten Halloween Parade 2000

Kindergarten Halloween Parade 2001

"Long ago I reached for you, and there you stood…"

She's A Freshman, Now!

Freshman in High School 2010

"Holding you again could only do me good…how I wish I could, but you're so far away…AND, I know you love me, aaaaaanyway."

[bites lower lip]

Okay, I added that last part in, but Heather and me, yeah, we're good (for now) and PLEASE don't tell her, or the part about her mother being SUCH a dork.

[heavy sigh]

Because, she's MY daughter and…trust me, she already knows…bless her squishy little heart!!!

© 2010 This Full House / This Full House Gone Shopping

Comments

56 responses to “This is What it Sounds Like, When Butterflies Cry”

  1. Melisa Avatar

    She is beautiful, too. I hope she had a great day at school.
    Also? I can’t WAIT until you’re sitting in her kitchen years from now, when she does the same thing to her offspring.

  2. Melisa Avatar

    She is beautiful, too. I hope she had a great day at school.
    Also? I can’t WAIT until you’re sitting in her kitchen years from now, when she does the same thing to her offspring.

  3. Melisa Avatar

    She is beautiful, too. I hope she had a great day at school.
    Also? I can’t WAIT until you’re sitting in her kitchen years from now, when she does the same thing to her offspring.

  4. Melisa Avatar

    She is beautiful, too. I hope she had a great day at school.
    Also? I can’t WAIT until you’re sitting in her kitchen years from now, when she does the same thing to her offspring.

  5. Melisa Avatar

    She is beautiful, too. I hope she had a great day at school.
    Also? I can’t WAIT until you’re sitting in her kitchen years from now, when she does the same thing to her offspring.

  6. Melisa Avatar

    She is beautiful, too. I hope she had a great day at school.
    Also? I can’t WAIT until you’re sitting in her kitchen years from now, when she does the same thing to her offspring.

  7. Melisa Avatar

    She is beautiful, too. I hope she had a great day at school.
    Also? I can’t WAIT until you’re sitting in her kitchen years from now, when she does the same thing to her offspring.

  8. ascapecodturns Avatar

    She is so cute. And you singing is cute. I hope her first day went well for the both of you. That is a very early time to get on the bus!

  9. ascapecodturns Avatar

    She is so cute. And you singing is cute. I hope her first day went well for the both of you. That is a very early time to get on the bus!

  10. ascapecodturns Avatar

    She is so cute. And you singing is cute. I hope her first day went well for the both of you. That is a very early time to get on the bus!

  11. ascapecodturns Avatar

    She is so cute. And you singing is cute. I hope her first day went well for the both of you. That is a very early time to get on the bus!

  12. ascapecodturns Avatar

    She is so cute. And you singing is cute. I hope her first day went well for the both of you. That is a very early time to get on the bus!

  13. ascapecodturns Avatar

    She is so cute. And you singing is cute. I hope her first day went well for the both of you. That is a very early time to get on the bus!

  14. ascapecodturns Avatar

    She is so cute. And you singing is cute. I hope her first day went well for the both of you. That is a very early time to get on the bus!

  15. allison Avatar

    I lover her shiny flats! That’s a great first day of school outfit.

  16. allison Avatar

    I lover her shiny flats! That’s a great first day of school outfit.

  17. allison Avatar

    I lover her shiny flats! That’s a great first day of school outfit.

  18. allison Avatar

    I lover her shiny flats! That’s a great first day of school outfit.

  19. allison Avatar

    I lover her shiny flats! That’s a great first day of school outfit.

  20. allison Avatar

    I lover her shiny flats! That’s a great first day of school outfit.

  21. allison Avatar

    I lover her shiny flats! That’s a great first day of school outfit.

  22. Nycgirl0501 Avatar

    You are both too cute! I hope she had a great first day of high school! 🙂

  23. Nycgirl0501 Avatar

    You are both too cute! I hope she had a great first day of high school! 🙂

  24. Nycgirl0501 Avatar

    You are both too cute! I hope she had a great first day of high school! 🙂

  25. Nycgirl0501 Avatar

    You are both too cute! I hope she had a great first day of high school! 🙂

  26. Nycgirl0501 Avatar

    You are both too cute! I hope she had a great first day of high school! 🙂

  27. Nycgirl0501 Avatar

    You are both too cute! I hope she had a great first day of high school! 🙂

  28. Nycgirl0501 Avatar

    You are both too cute! I hope she had a great first day of high school! 🙂

  29. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Is she going to the communications HS? If so my nephew is there and likes it. I hope whatever it is was great for the first day.

  30. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Is she going to the communications HS? If so my nephew is there and likes it. I hope whatever it is was great for the first day.

  31. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Is she going to the communications HS? If so my nephew is there and likes it. I hope whatever it is was great for the first day.

  32. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Is she going to the communications HS? If so my nephew is there and likes it. I hope whatever it is was great for the first day.

  33. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Is she going to the communications HS? If so my nephew is there and likes it. I hope whatever it is was great for the first day.

  34. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Is she going to the communications HS? If so my nephew is there and likes it. I hope whatever it is was great for the first day.

  35. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    Is she going to the communications HS? If so my nephew is there and likes it. I hope whatever it is was great for the first day.

  36. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Thanks guys! First day was awkward (understandably) yesterday, the freshman took a field trip to a local park, had lunch and engaged in trust exercises, together. It was a good day 🙂 Today, she’s off from school with the rest of her sibs, but has to go back on Friday. Now, I’m hearing the word, “paybacks” from the other 3, for her starting school later than they did. OY!
    Hugs,
    Liz

  37. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Thanks guys! First day was awkward (understandably) yesterday, the freshman took a field trip to a local park, had lunch and engaged in trust exercises, together. It was a good day 🙂 Today, she’s off from school with the rest of her sibs, but has to go back on Friday. Now, I’m hearing the word, “paybacks” from the other 3, for her starting school later than they did. OY!
    Hugs,
    Liz

  38. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Thanks guys! First day was awkward (understandably) yesterday, the freshman took a field trip to a local park, had lunch and engaged in trust exercises, together. It was a good day 🙂 Today, she’s off from school with the rest of her sibs, but has to go back on Friday. Now, I’m hearing the word, “paybacks” from the other 3, for her starting school later than they did. OY!
    Hugs,
    Liz

  39. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Thanks guys! First day was awkward (understandably) yesterday, the freshman took a field trip to a local park, had lunch and engaged in trust exercises, together. It was a good day 🙂 Today, she’s off from school with the rest of her sibs, but has to go back on Friday. Now, I’m hearing the word, “paybacks” from the other 3, for her starting school later than they did. OY!
    Hugs,
    Liz

  40. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Thanks guys! First day was awkward (understandably) yesterday, the freshman took a field trip to a local park, had lunch and engaged in trust exercises, together. It was a good day 🙂 Today, she’s off from school with the rest of her sibs, but has to go back on Friday. Now, I’m hearing the word, “paybacks” from the other 3, for her starting school later than they did. OY!
    Hugs,
    Liz

  41. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Thanks guys! First day was awkward (understandably) yesterday, the freshman took a field trip to a local park, had lunch and engaged in trust exercises, together. It was a good day 🙂 Today, she’s off from school with the rest of her sibs, but has to go back on Friday. Now, I’m hearing the word, “paybacks” from the other 3, for her starting school later than they did. OY!
    Hugs,
    Liz

  42. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Thanks guys! First day was awkward (understandably) yesterday, the freshman took a field trip to a local park, had lunch and engaged in trust exercises, together. It was a good day 🙂 Today, she’s off from school with the rest of her sibs, but has to go back on Friday. Now, I’m hearing the word, “paybacks” from the other 3, for her starting school later than they did. OY!
    Hugs,
    Liz

  43. Maureen @ Wisconsin Mommy Avatar

    Hugs for you both! Those transitions are so tough (says the woman wandering around her very empty, very quiet house trying to come to grips with the fact that her baby is in Kindergarten).
    And what a beautiful young lady you have!

  44. Maureen @ Wisconsin Mommy Avatar

    Hugs for you both! Those transitions are so tough (says the woman wandering around her very empty, very quiet house trying to come to grips with the fact that her baby is in Kindergarten).
    And what a beautiful young lady you have!

  45. Maureen @ Wisconsin Mommy Avatar

    Hugs for you both! Those transitions are so tough (says the woman wandering around her very empty, very quiet house trying to come to grips with the fact that her baby is in Kindergarten).
    And what a beautiful young lady you have!

  46. Maureen @ Wisconsin Mommy Avatar

    Hugs for you both! Those transitions are so tough (says the woman wandering around her very empty, very quiet house trying to come to grips with the fact that her baby is in Kindergarten).
    And what a beautiful young lady you have!

  47. Maureen @ Wisconsin Mommy Avatar

    Hugs for you both! Those transitions are so tough (says the woman wandering around her very empty, very quiet house trying to come to grips with the fact that her baby is in Kindergarten).
    And what a beautiful young lady you have!

  48. Maureen @ Wisconsin Mommy Avatar

    Hugs for you both! Those transitions are so tough (says the woman wandering around her very empty, very quiet house trying to come to grips with the fact that her baby is in Kindergarten).
    And what a beautiful young lady you have!

  49. Maureen @ Wisconsin Mommy Avatar

    Hugs for you both! Those transitions are so tough (says the woman wandering around her very empty, very quiet house trying to come to grips with the fact that her baby is in Kindergarten).
    And what a beautiful young lady you have!

  50. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Hi Maureen,
    Kindergarten is a HUGE transition for everyone, I think.  Congrats and hugs to you, too!!!
    Liz
     

  51. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Hi Maureen,
    Kindergarten is a HUGE transition for everyone, I think.  Congrats and hugs to you, too!!!
    Liz
     

  52. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Hi Maureen,
    Kindergarten is a HUGE transition for everyone, I think.  Congrats and hugs to you, too!!!
    Liz
     

  53. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Hi Maureen,
    Kindergarten is a HUGE transition for everyone, I think.  Congrats and hugs to you, too!!!
    Liz
     

  54. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Hi Maureen,
    Kindergarten is a HUGE transition for everyone, I think.  Congrats and hugs to you, too!!!
    Liz
     

  55. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Hi Maureen,
    Kindergarten is a HUGE transition for everyone, I think.  Congrats and hugs to you, too!!!
    Liz
     

  56. Liz@thisfullhouse Avatar

    Hi Maureen,
    Kindergarten is a HUGE transition for everyone, I think.  Congrats and hugs to you, too!!!
    Liz